Oldies

So, I decided to take a trip down memory lane today. Wasn't expecting to notice how much a small amount of time can change me and how much I miss people I said I never would. I'm a bit of a hoarder, so memory lane consists of old saved notes, pictures, and facebook conversations. I don't know why this would be shocking, but feelings I have wanted to forget and memories I forgot existed, surfaced. It felt like everything happened ages ago, when it was only 2 or 3 years ago. It's times like these I really want it back. I think it's just security of having certain people in my life. Or having school work be the easiest thing. But then I sort of snap out of it and think, "would I be a sliver of the person I am today? Would I even think about doing the things I want to do or have the friends I do?" I'll never know. What I do know, is no matter how much I love who I have become in a small amount of time, I sure wish I could go back and enjoy, once again, what I'm missing right now. 

Something to look forward to

A love like Colonel Brandon had for Marianne. The way Lizzy wasn't afraid to speak her mind to Mr. Darcy. A quiet type of love like Jane and Mr. Bingley. And, if I may, the adventurous friendship type of love Rose and The Doctor have. I've decided I want a bit of it all.